I am letting a friend of mine be my inspiration to blog more often.   I often think of things to muse or write about when I am walking around the building at work.  I sometimes get inspiration when driving or listening to the radio or even when thinking about the day before sleeping.   But rarely when I am here on the computer or checking out my “peeps” on FaceBook.

This spring I have totally lacked inspiration.  I have not even started to think about a garden.  I finally planted the Hyacinth that Megan and I purchased about two weeks ago last night.  I have so many projects that I am totally overwhelmed by them.  Many have been started, but not finished and many more are just hanging out in my head.   I have started writing again, but need to have the time and money to do the research.  And worst of all, I have studied and meditated myself into a spiritual corner. I have searched for truth and the truth I have found has left me feeling hollow.

I am post-menopausal and wonder if that is part of the problem.  From the research I have done I can find issues about serotonin absorption , B12 absorption , and other issues that cause depression in post-menopausal women.  But I so far have not found a magic pill or combination  to resolve my “slump.”

I have many reasons to be happy.  I have a wonderful husband.  My eldest daughter has moved back to Tennessee with my son-in-law and grandson Sion.  I have a wonderful home and wonderful spiritual support system.  I have people I love and people who love me.  I have activities with wonderful and inspiring people to keep me busy.

Over the last several days I have had several meaningful cardinal sightings.  I am hoping that is a good sign.   I will keep trying and I will find a solution.